From the outside looking in you can never understand it. From the inside looking out you can never explain it.
This week we celebrated our son's 15th birthday. No big deal, but for us it is an annual occasion to stop and celebrate being parents, we almost didn't make it. We want to remember everyone dealing with the agony of infertility.
After 10 years of infertility, countless investigations, failed treatments, multiple miscarriages and attending adoption classes, our miracle finally happened. We are not smug, we know everyone doesn't get their miracle and our thoughts this week are with couples going through the agony of infertility.
We know exactly how difficult it is to be denied what appears so easy for others and to feel consumed by happy families and everyone you know and everywhere you go, people are pregnant. To feel guilty for feeling sad, you are happy for them, just sad for what you cannot have. To be told to "just relax" by well meaning friends and family, all of whom are parents.
Even in the most challenging moments, when our son is a pain in the butt, we never forget how grateful we are. We still have to pinch ourselves that he is here and what a lovely young man he is becoming, we couldn't be more proud.
Sending love, strength and hope to everyone who knows what I am talking about.